I Have A Blog? I Had Forgotten...

Writers block, be gone! I think that I might finally have something come out of my fingers on to the page that might be worthwhile. As you can tell it has been a while since I have posted an entry. To both of you that actually follow this blog, sincere apologies… to my posterity that read this in the future it won’t make that big of a difference. Anyhow…

Things have been good, for the most part. As I write this I am in my office at my house winding down from a few items of import that I just completed for work. Things with work have started to show improvement again and I am confident that the lull that I had a few months back has at least been stayed off for another month. I try not to dwell too much on those things and focus on the important things in my life but I find that in order to have my kids near me, be current in my support obligations, remain relatively out of debt, etc. that I have to make money. My job has allowed me the ability to surmount large financial obstacles without having to stress too much over long periods of time. Being that I am a salesman when something comes up instead of having to plan and budget meticulously for months or years I just have to “get more deals.” Currently, I am working on building a team of loan officers to work with me similar to the way that I started my career with Alex. He had a great thing going with the team he built; he just didn’t have the communication skills to teach us to want to be loyal to him. The first team member of “The Prescott Group” is Nate Nelson, a twenty-something B.Y.U. graduate that is almost engaged to be married. He started doing loans with Wells Fargo Financial and became so disgusted at the manner in which they conducted business that he came to Envision Lending. An acquaintance of his told him to seek out Amie to process his loans, (she’s the best) and that’s how we met. He has been a great friend and associate and I am hopeful for a fruitful working relationship over the years. Unfortunately for Alex, I learned in working with him that being a good leader and mentor has nothing to do with the money; it has to do with the value of the relationship and maintaining that fragile relationship as the trainee learns more of the business and becomes more independent in his abilities. Nate has a good head on his shoulders and we both recognize we have a better chance to succeed working together. As things get stronger with Nate I will add more team members; hopefully to the end that my Niche Funding project will start to show some fruit. Such is business…

Amie and I spent the Mother’s Day/Anniversary weekend in Las Vegas. When we got married a year ago we stayed at the newly opened Wynn Hotel on the strip. The Wynn sends me emails periodically and a few weeks ago I received one for incredibly cheap rooms for the weekend and half price show tickets. It was a very nice weekend, just the two of us reminiscing about what the last year has been for us and where the next one will go. Being that I had never been and the tickets were half price we went to the show “Le Reve” at the hotel. It was incredible. The theater was designed especially for the show; it was a giant “theater in the round” with the stage being water with different floating stages that appeared and disappeared for the different parts the show. “Le Reve” means “the dream” in French and the show was seven different representations of dreams one might have. There was high flying wire work, diving from incredible heights, dancing and even a bit of comedy. I would google “Le Reve” to see some clips from the show; it was almost magical.
Life is starting to settle down a bit but still has significant trials. I still miss my kids every day and can’t wait for them to be closer to me; which should be within the next month or so. My relationship with my step-son is rocky at best; this week seems to be a new low for us. I have expressed to Amie the struggles I have with him and why I feel such a short fuse with everything that he does. The reasons I feel these feelings is that I don’t feel that I have any say in what goes on with his life. To him, I mean nothing; matter of fact the times he is the happiest are the times when I am away. Amie feels that I am too hard on him and never show him any sort of friendship and so that is her reason for feeling the need to “protect” him from me. Amie has admitted that her endearment to me is tied to my relationship with him, adding to the loneliness of the situation. I look at him as one of the costs of my kids being far away and he has no respect or gratitude for the positive things I have brought into the life of his mother; only that I am the guy that takes away attention from his mother. This week I have pulled back completely in the situation having Amie handle everything with Dorian; I don’t think I have really even spoken directly to him for the last few days. He has subsequently been bubbly and happy making my world seem even larger and my influence even smaller in it. How is it possible that a four and a half year old can already wield this much power to his surroundings? What is the right thing for me to do? I feel so much confusion in this area and know that if it continues unchecked that it will deteriorate even more to the point where it affects Amie and I more than it does now. It is devastating to feel that as a possibility; I cannot live in such a way.

On a lighter note, we are attempting to sell our H2. We have tried in the past but this time we are really putting the effort out to get rid of it. I will be posting it on eBay here in the next day or so after I finish getting the info that I need to post it effectively. It has a lot of goodies in it so it should be able to go reasonably fast. I will add a picture of it with this entry as a remembrance.

Welcome back to the blog…